After everything is said and done, I still believe in you, God, and trust in your plan for us.
Last year was the most difficult year in my entire life. My family and loved ones went through many tragedies, including several deaths and illnesses. I was kicked down by people I thought I trusted. That was a really dark time. I remember that I absolutely hated you. I felt like you abandoned me and my family, or even the entire world for that matter. There were times where I did not even believe in you at all anymore.
Looking back, I feel so ashamed. I now realize our world is the way it is not because of you, God, but because of the evil of people in the world. I understand you better than I ever have in my life now, God. You are powerful enough to take everything from us. You are great enough to take our sorrows, our anger, and our pain. And even though I sinned against you, I know that you forgive me. You understand that I am only a mere human. You love us despite all our faults, despite all of our sins, and you can heal all.
I used to ask you, why? Why do you let horrible things happen to good people? Honestly, it seems to me that nothing bad happens to the evil people in the world. But after everything happened the way it did, I now understand and have hope that you sent us Jesus to save us from this world.
Jesus suffered just as we did, and he was blameless. Somehow that comforted me. And to this day, I know in my heart that Jesus is the one who saved me. His love was in every person and friend who reached out to me and comforted me. I never realized how lucky I was.
To have a loved one reach out to you just because they love you and be there for you at your lowest–the everlasting impression of that goodwill can never be gained from anything material.
Thank you, God, for this lesson.